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今天一夜沒睡，終于把電視劇逆水寒看完了。真的是一部好戲。雖然我不知道他到底多終于原著，但對於一個武俠小説沒看過多少、武俠電視劇看了很多的假武俠迷來説，已經是很好的作品了。至少，第一次看武俠片會讓我有深深的感受。注意，不是感觸。能把一部電影拍到感人，其實並不會很難。可是能把一部電影拍得讓人去想去思考就不是那麽容易了。所以一部又感人又有思考價值的電影才堪稱經典。
把逆水寒變成經典的主要因素是他的第一大反角顧惜朝。跟顧惜朝比起來，男主角慼少商真的是暗淡無光。慼少商把武俠裏的俠義表現的非常道地，他擁有所有一位大俠必須具備的條件和作風，可以説是挑不出毛病的大大好人。可是從頭到尾看著慼少商不停的被追殺，一個個朋友為他而亡，每死一個他就嚷嚷招要報仇... 真的很乏味。難道，這就是好人嗎？如果是，當好人真的很無聊。無聊到連自己最愛的人都無法好好去愛。這樣的好人，真的不當也罷。
顧惜朝恰恰相反。他是個十惡不赦的大壞蛋。雖説他本質不坏，是想用他的聰明才智出人頭地時爲了走近路超小道被人利用的。但是他善惡不分、手腕卑鄙、殺人如麻 -的確是世人眼裏的第一惡人。可是比起“完美”的慼少商，顧惜朝才像個“人”。他有感情，他有血有肉，他當然也有貪心和自私。這些都是活生生的人性。只要他開心，只要他覺得做一件事能領他走向他所嚮往的，不管是什麽他都會做。我們，雖然不像顧惜朝一樣殺人放火，其實在某种意義上做的也是一樣的事。人不自私，天誅地滅。因此，整部劇牽引我的是顧惜朝。就算知道他是個大壞人，就算知道他絕對不會有好結果，就算了結壞人是不應該被同情的，最喜歡最佩服的角色還是顧惜朝。
是，我佩服顧惜朝。不是欣賞他毫無同情心的冷酷，不是羡慕他的博學多問，而是佩服他厚黑的本領。因爲他又厚又黑，他可以不在意別人的眼光繼續心安理得的用他那些所謂見不得光的手段。不像很多會被一個小小的駡名而擊垮的江湖人士，顧惜朝頂著千古罪人的“美譽”繼續“作惡多端”，只爲了向他的目的地前進。
更何況好與壞的定義是世人給的。什麽才是好，什麽才是壞？逆水寒拼命的塑造了一“黑”一“白”的兩個人。就以世俗的眼光來看，慼少商是好，顧惜朝是壞。顧惜朝壞是因爲他想出了很多很可怕的點子、殺了好多人來誘捕慼少商。可是慼少商真的是好嗎？一個巴掌拍不響。那些被顧惜朝殺的人，若不是因爲慼少商不投降，可以不死的。間接殺人，慼少商殺的人跟顧惜朝殺的一樣多。有人會說，慼少商是被冤枉的，他是被逼得走投無路才會這樣。但我認爲死了這麽多人的責任不能因爲一個“冤枉”就全落到顧惜朝身上。難道顧惜朝就不是嗎？這是他的工作。盡心盡力把工作做好是基本的工作態度，何況他的工作，既然已經接了，做不好是要掉腦袋的。所以他真的放手往成功衝了。
但他並沒有成功，因爲他還是錯了。不理會別人的眼光沒有錯，錯的是他不應該把工作和生活混在一起。爲了他最心愛的妻子，他急功近利，甘願受他那陰險狡詐的岳父擺佈。爲了達到殺慼少商的目的，他不惜利用感情作誘餌。厚黑是適用工作上而不是生活裏的。結果他的代價就是沒有親朋好友，連唯一還剩下的妻子和徒弟最後也因爲他的工作而（將）被殺害。既然工作生活已經混在一起了，顧惜朝卻不是完全絕情之人，無法真得狠下心來除掉所有的障礙物。因爲情還在，他殺連云三亂時挣扎了好久好久。因爲情還在，他拉著晚晴要她去找鐡手躲避自己的追殺。因爲情還在，一次又一次殺慼少商的機會他都有意無意的錯過了。因爲情還在，他救了息紅淚、跟慼少商喝“斷頭酒”時說了好多好多心底的話。所以顧惜朝失敗了。他很厚很黑，可是對於他的處境還不夠厚不夠黑。如果顧惜朝把他的厚黑用在戰場或商場裏而不是在自己家裏，他就不是壞人而是一位成功者。可是他還是不夠了解自己，或是說他被一些事情的表象迷惑了。真的很可惜，他看得到他所想要得結果，卻走錯了道路、做了錯誤的決定，可惜了他一身的智慧、功夫。
不過，對於逆水寒這部劇來説，還好顧惜朝就是現在的顧惜朝。劇情不動，顧惜朝唯一成功的可能就是厚黑的徹底。可是這樣他就失了吸引人的“人性”了。Current Mood:  thoughtful Current Music: 傷心小箭 |
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又是一年過去了，感覺自己的世界改變了好多好多。呵呵，其實這麽一句話在最近的幾個年頭裏幾乎已經變成了我的口頭禪。好像每一天都有事情發生，每一天我的世界都在做著或多或少的改變。不一樣的是，往年通常是周遭的變化而無可奈何的被影響，今年的問題卻是直通通的往自己來。真的很奇怪，本來以爲往年的事早已裝備好自己，是滴水不漏的。我失算了。不錯，很多其他人現在才必須面對的問題我不用煩惱了。可是我自己的煩惱好像也沒有比人家少。
今年，過了一個很特別的19嵗生日。累，忙碌，溫暖，窩心，傷心，又失望 -這就是我19嵗的生日。或許這也意味著我這一生注定要在多種情緒的交織下渡過。以前老是說自己老了累了玩不動了，是個無情無心之人。能跟所有人打交道卻不會把自己給任何人，就是因爲範例看了太多知道除了自己太相信別人在乎別人對自己只有壞處沒有好處。或許是第一次出去闖，有點寂寞吧？明明知道結局，還是飛蛾撲火，希望能夠找到一知己。最後還是輸了，還輸得很徹底。也怪不了誰。誰叫我明知故犯呢？
算是對我來說很“叛逆”的一年吧。在別人眼裏或許我今年這樣才像個“人”。可是我自己知道，這樣讓感情操控自己並非真正的自己。太習慣所有的事情都在自己的掌握之下，偶爾放手讓心去飛反而很不習慣。頭髮剪了。這輩子第一次嘗試短髮的感覺，大家都説好看。是不是真得好看，我也不知道。但是第一次的短髮，不到一個月的時間又長回了長髮。或許，有些東西是真的無法改變的吧。
今年發生的事，我會慢慢一點點地記下來。不過最希望放假的三個月，我能找回原先的那個我，我所習慣也喜歡的我。然後明年~ 恢復對自己和周遭完全的一切掌控。
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MM的成分如下： - 黑暗：44.31%
- 维纳斯：23.31%
- 电车男：18.47%
- 爱：6.16%
- 死魂灵：6.16%
- 黑社会老大：1.58%
Eilonwy的成分如下： - TNT炸药：52.82%
- 核子反应原料：22.88%
- 战争机器：10.52%
- 高频噪声：2.91%
- 不良青年：0.68%
- 夸克：0.14%
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今天是平安夜
就來一首最傳統的吧~
平安夜，相信MM就不用多做解釋了
是每逢聖誕必唱之歌啊
不過MM還是想方設法的玩了點花樣~
這次不唱傳統版的，MM唱了爵士版的
小小抱怨一下錄音的過程...
爵士絕不是MM所善常的風格
一遍又一遍的ng，唱到頭昏眼花還是唱得不好
這首絕對是MM聖誕倒數唱得最辛苦的歌了~
成品不是很好，請見證！
Silent Night
Silent night, holy night!
All is calm, all is bright.
Round yon Virgin, Mother and Child.
Holy infant so tender and mild,
Sleep in heavenly peace,
Sleep in heavenly peace.
Silent night, holy night!
Son of God love's pure light.
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With dawn of redeeming grace,
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth.
Jesus Lord, at Thy birth
~MMCurrent Music: Silent Night |
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再來介紹一首MM最熟悉的美聲聖詩
就是安德烈‧洛伊‧偉伯的 "Pie Jesu" 又名「安魂曲」
是他為他當時的愛妻莎拉‧布來曼量身訂做的曲子
也是為了記念一些因戰火而失去家庭的孩子
歌詞完全是意大利文寫的
大概翻譯成：
慈愛的天父
將罪惡洗淨
讓他們安息
上帝的羔羊
伺與永恆的和平
Pie Jesu
Pie Jesu, Pie Jesu,
Pie Jesu, Pie Jesu,
Qui tollis peccata mundi;
Dona eis requiem,
Dona eis requiem.
Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei,
Agnus Dei, Agnus Dei,
Qui tollis peccata mundi;
Dona eis requiem,
Dona eis requiem.
Sempiternam, sempiternam requiem.
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第二首，是中文的「天堂在我心」
它是一首由美國華僑自創的樂團「讚美之泉」所寫的
「讚美之泉」創作、演唱的聖詩一向比較接近我們華人普遍喜歡的流行曲風
而「天堂在我心」算是其中最「輕」的一首了
輕到可以用吟唱的方式表達
也是因為它輕快但又不搖滾的風格讓MM愛不適手
天堂在我心
誰說，沉睡已久的花蕾不能綻放一季繽紛？
誰說，寒冬之後的大地不能展現一片青翠？
誰說，曾經受傷的翅膀不能再度自由地飛？
我要抬起頭，張開雙臂擁抱神所賜的世界。
I want to be free 自由地飛，
在愛中無懼怕，在愛中無傷悲，
I want to be free 不再流淚，
Because I believe that heaven is here，
我有天堂在我心。
~MM
Dec. 22nd, 2006 @ 12:41 pm
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四天後就是聖誕節囉~
為了迎接聖誕節
在接下來的幾天裡...
MM每一天會唱一首不同風格的聖詩
並做一點簡單的介紹
希望今年的聖誕格外的溫暖
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第一首介紹給大家的是「埃及王子」的主題曲 "When You Believe"
做為卡通的主題曲，很少有人會把它跟聖詩想在一起
但「埃及王子」本身就是描述聖經裡的其中一個故事「出埃及記」
而且歌詞也是教人對上帝要有信心，就會有奇蹟發生
不過它的旋律優美，也能當一般的歌曲欣賞
當年「埃及王子」上演的時候，除了電影裡大合唱的版本外
還被改編成流行版本，由 Mariah Carey 和 Whithney Housten 演唱
不過由于MM各人比較喜歡原版的大合唱，就沒唱流行版的
When You Believe
Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barling understood
Now we are not afraid
All though we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
Chorus:
There can be mircles when you believe
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Whose knows what mircles you can achieve
When you believe some how you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear
When prayers so often proved in vain
Hope seem like the summer bird
To swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here with hearts so full
I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
Chorus:
There can be mircles when you believe(When you believe)
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Whose knows what mircles you can achieve(You can achieve)
When you believe some how you will, you will when you believe
Hebrew:
A shia a don ia, Ki ga o ga, A shia a don ia, Ki ga o ga
Mei cha mo cha de me a don ia
Mei cha mo cha de a da ko desh
Na shia v cha te ka ma zu gal ata, Na shia v cha te ka ma zu gal ata
A shia, A shia, A shia
A shia a don ia, Ki ga o ga, A shia a donia, Ki ga o ga
Mei cha mo cha de me a don ia
Mei cha mo cha de a da ko desh
Na shia v cha te ka ma zu gal ata, Na shia v cha te ka zu gal ata
A shia, A shia, A shia
Chorus:
There can be mircles when you believe(When you believe)
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Whose knows what mircles you can achieve(You can achieve)
When you believe some how you will
Now you will
You will when you believe
When you believe
Solo:
You will when you believe
~MM
Dec. 21st, 2006 @ 08:50 pm
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1.你的名字：
MM
2.请用三个事物形容自己:
冰山、烏龜、馬達
3.请回忆一个微小却幸福的瞬间:
走在路上被自己想不起名的人叫出名字
4.如果爱情是罐头的话，它的保鲜期限是多少:
愛情的保鮮期是不到一個鐘頭的，因為不論多久，它終究要變質的
5.你穿多大号的鞋:
5號，是很小很小的
6.到目前为止说过多少次我爱你:
没有
7.说和不说有什麽区别
有，那就是我說出來的那一天太陽就要從西邊出來了
8.如果睡不著，请问用什麽方法使自己入睡:
那就不睡了吧
9.会说几种方言:
中文、英文
10.你认为方言对你有何意义
一個是母語，另一個是不得不學的
11.你喜欢的一个乐器:
我的喉嚨
12.说说喜欢的理由:
隨身攜帶，而且是最拿手的
13.爱吃的冰淇淋是哪种:
瑞士巧克力
14.请解释你对幸福的理解:
一個人，不需要依賴任何人
15.虚荣的本质是什麽:
想聽別人的讚美
16.你虚荣麽，请诚实回答:
有
17.现在穿的上衣颜色:
粉紅色
18.你目前最想看的一部电影:
沒有特別想看的
19.最喜欢的演员:
林心如、蘇有朋、奧黛麗‧赫本、珊卓拉‧布落克
20.你最常吃的菜:
媽媽做的
21.你长得像爸爸还是妈妈:
都像
22.你喜欢异性留长发麽:
不喜歡
23.看到一个陌生的异性，你会先看他/她的:
身高
24.请用一个名著来形容自己:
防人之心不可無
25.喜欢老子还是孔子:
都不喜歡
26.喜欢李白还是杜甫:
李白
27.你认为人最可怕的地方是哪里:
自私
28.你认为什麽是美(注意，不是漂亮):
氣質
29.知道爸爸妈妈的生日麽:
知道
30.说一件让你遗憾的事:
沒有
31.你对“孩子”的定义:
令人討厭、花錢、社會麻煩
32.反复读的一本书:
Chronical of Prydain
33.你喜爱的女性是这样的:
像我自己一樣的
34.你喜爱的男性是这样的:
比我能幹的
35.你认为人与人之间最重要的是:
害人之心不可有
36.最真实的快乐是:
當你還是孩子的時候
37.如果现在你有足够的钱、时间，你会:
買像圖書館一樣多的書
38.你对第三者的态度:
因事件而異
39.在春天最喜欢做的事:
在草地上看書、看雲、發呆
40.看电影会经常哭麽:
不哭
41.什麽是女人味:
不會依賴人的女人
42.什麽是男人味:
給女人空間的男人
43.如果来生变成一个动物，你会是:
貓頭鷹
44.如果来生变成一株植物，你会是:
百合花
45.节日对你有何意义:
那也要看是什麼節日
46.你喜欢的一个动漫形象:
沒有特別喜歡的
47.你选择朋友的标准是:
只要沒有過份強占我的空間的都是我的朋友
48.今天吃的什麽早饭:
冰淇淋
49.你何时沉默、何时健谈:
依場合需要而異
50.鸡年的新愿望:
沒有期待
51.你的性别:
女
52.说到性别，你认为男女最大的差别是:
身體上的差異
53.你要漂到岛上独自度过很长的光阴，你会带的一本书:
Great Expectation -Charles Dickens
54.你是无神论者吗:
不是
55.你信、或者愿意信哪一门宗教(非信不可的情况下):
基督教
56.你喜欢小动物吗，哪一种:
貓，因為很可愛
57.你所理解的工作的意义:
增加財富的基本途徑
58.排除一切不可能的条件，你最想从事的职业:
導演
59.你在街头的冷饮摊上，最常叫的冷饮是:
咖啡，雖然它是熱的
60.你最喜欢的一副美术作品:
莫內各種版本的睡蓮
61.说你很熟悉但大众可能都不太知晓的一样东西:
我的一生
62.在名山大川的寺庙里观光，你所持的一种心态:
沒有教堂來的好
63.你最想旅行去哪里，下一个目标:
中國各地
64.你身上的一件装饰:
戒指
65.说一个和你接触过的印象深刻、难以忘怀的人:
太多太多，說不完
66.如果条件许可，你想穿什麽服装出门:
自己設計，自己縫製的
67.你所能描摹的一种“爱情”的场面:
想不出來最寫實的
68.你和狗都饿了，而食物远不够你和狗吃的，你会:
自己吃，如果還沒吃飽就把狗也吃了
69.你认为最好的一部国产电视剧:
雍正王朝
70.看见极美的事物你会有什麽反应:
拍下來，因為我隨身攜帶照相機
71.说说最近让你感动的一件事:
沒有
72.印尼海啸你捐款了吗，乐意捐吗:
沒有，沒有錢可以樂意
73.翁帆和杨镇宁的婚事你怎麽看:
不認識
74.你所能想象的200年後的地球:
我不花不需要的頭腦想不需要想的事
75.你最喜欢的一款电脑游戏:
櫻花大戰
76.克林顿、布什两个总统，你认为谁更有魅力:
克林頓
77.你最喜欢的一个城市:
我家
78.你的一样特长:
自戀
79.你最常使用的一个网名:
MissMoral
80.有几个可以用的电子信箱:
兩個
81.你的手机型号:
Motorola 的
82.你丢过几个钱包:
我的東西一向丟不了
83.你最中意的一个网络写手:
没有
84.你酒量如何:
不知道，應該還可以
85.你每天都要买（或看）的一份报纸:
不看報
86.你下馆子最喜欢点的一道菜:
家裡吃不到的
87.描述一下你现在的窗外的景色:
黑夜、花叢還有我的黑貓
88.你最喜欢的一句诗:
花開堪折直需折
89.你的生物锺是怎麽一个规律:
很容易失調引起時差
90.在这世界上，你遇到过让你爱得灵魂颤抖的人吗:
不可能
91.好好想一想再回答，你的性格有几面:
千面
92.你对一夜情的看法:
無聊沒意義又不道德
93.你所去过的最美丽的风景区:
Mt Cook 的冰湖
94.你有多高、有多重:
173CM，45KG。
95.你感冒了最常吃的药是:
不吃
96.说一说你身体的特殊之处:
可塑性高
97.你是否希望有来生:
人生很痛苦，一次就夠了
98.你近来正在阅读的一本书:
Anna Karenina
99.你近来常访问的一个网站:
RubyStation, Oursakura
100.讲一讲你所经历过的希奇古怪的事:
太多了~
Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 04:57 am
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| » So I Graduated.... |
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So I graduated, huh. Just got home from the leavers ball. Had four glasses of wine to drink.... Didn't feel much.
It's weird, graduating. I've always known I would be leaving school. I've always known I couldn't stay there forever. I've always thought I would cry and miss it very badly when it is my time to leave. But no, I didn't. I didn't cry. I didn't feel remotely sad. In fact, I couldn't wait to get out of my school, Rangi Ruru.
It is really interesting. It's the third school I've ever been to in my entire life and the place I've stayed for the last seven years... nearly half of my life time as of now. And I don't even care when I left it. All thanks to a certain someone in the school, my love for the school died within the last half a year.
I went to the ball by myself. I walked the ceremony by myself. No daddy, no friends, and I turned down every offer from teachers or their husbands. That's my style, the lone soldier of the endless battlefield. This may make me seem heartless, but it's the truth. For self protection, it is always better to keep yourself a little distant from everyone. Few friends are real while most friends are fake. The stranger down the street might just become the enemy wishing you dead the very next day. Your closest family member can betray you before you even blink. So what? If you got hurt in the process... too bad, your own fault that you haven't protected yourself well enough to minimise the harm.
Yeah, I've had a really bad year. Too many affairs from home and school has forced me to become the world's first rate actress. I have to act in school to disguise what is happening at home and at home to hide what is happening at school. I've kept it up for all these years and all of a sudden, I am feeling really really tired. And I can't even afford to let my guard down for a second for the fear that someone might corner me and pry out all my secrets. Too sick, too tired, too much. I've had enough. I am really ready to move on.
Next year... I'll really be all alone. Is that better or is that worse? I have no idea. But, at least it'll be different, right? Afterall, "tomorrow is a brand new day". I'll be optimistic and look forward and hope for the best. Laughing in pain is probably the most you can do in such a cruel world as this, really. So, no matter what, I will look on and smile. There's no time and no point for self-pity. I will remain the best actress there is and be as happy as I can be at all situation.
Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 03:52 am
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| » A Persionality Test |
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 | You scored as Maria Tachibana. You are most like Maria Tachibana!
Maria Tachibana | | 90% | Sumire Kanzaki | | 80% | Kohran Ri | | 70% | Kanna Kirishima | | 70% | Reni Milchstrasse | | 60% | Sakura Shinguji | | 55% | Orihime Soletta | | 45% | Iris Chateaubriand | | 30% | </td>
Which Hanagumi member are you?
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Oct. 31st, 2006 @ 08:48 am
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| » Nice Accomodation For Uni |
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Went down to the "desired uni" of mom's choice last week and had a look at my possible future accomodation. It is decided that I should spend a year there anyway as it won't do me any harm. But if I really hated it or failed the course, we can talk about the question again.
So I thought might as well find a nice resident hall for that single year. Why be mean to myself just because I don't really want to stay there forever? We visited three resident hall there and decided the third one is best.
The first one we visited looks too "brainy". It feels like students there are all academically strong strong and they do nothing but study study study. How boring. And there are too any Asians there too. Asians are too competitive and they never leave you alone even if you wanted to be left out of their competitions. Well, unless you are NOT Asian, which doesn't applie to me.
The second one loos really poorly managed. And the common room smelled of boy's cologn.... I hate that smell. So that's out of question.
The third one. Ah! I've liked it since I've been looking up university information online. That one is quite an old fashioned place. They have the whole classy Scottish castle theme going on, with their own library and chaple. Isn't that nice? I hope I'd get in there when I applie.
Apr. 24th, 2006 @ 02:29 am
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| » Beauty and the Beast |
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Saw the show "Beauty and the Beast" today, or rather last night. Aunt Ellen took us.
It was a good show. It has really good set and lighting. I really liked the use of special effect there too. The set is rather special to me, as it is designed by the same guy who designed our "Dracula" set last year. It's always a special feeling when you know someone in the show personally.
But he wasn't the only one I know. The girl who plays Belle used to go to my school with me, and I should think I know her somewhat. To be honest, I never liked her style of singing and acting back then, and I don't think my opinion really changed today. She's not bad, absolutely, and she improved lots since I saw her last time. But I think it's just a personal style thing that her voice kind of annoys me. Neverhteless, it was still a great show and I enjoyed it.
Apr. 14th, 2006 @ 02:23 am
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| » My Uncle's Meaning to My Life |
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That huge family event has finally taken the toll. We got mass-media-attacked last week. I thought I could tackle it easily, but I was wrong. All that burden on me in the past two months were enough to just about finish me off, leaving me no energy to cope with the final disaster. Luckily, my uncle arrived the day after the media-attack.
Uncle Robert was really here to take care of some of the related bussiness and partly to escape the media. But to me, his arrival was a help and an inspiration.
What really scared me was that when he got off the plane, he looked... normal. How could he when such nasty thing just happened? But he seemed calm and, to a degree, somewhat happy. The first thing he told me when he got off was that everything was all right. He said that I mustn't panick or my IQ would reduce and I'd handle things worse than I would have if I weren't panicking. He got me over my initial fear and made me stand up from self-pity.
The second day he arrived, he took my family to Akaroa for overnight stay. The ridiculus thing was that he started driving out of Christchurch at 8pm! By the time we arrived, it was 10pm+. The worst thing was that we didn't book the motel. So we went looking for a place to stay in the dark. Eventually we found one. By the time we got in our rooms, it was midnight. Uncle Robert is just such a humorous guy though. He kept telling endless jokes after we got into the hotel. Believe me, those jokes and stories were great crack ups, especially when he's the one telling it. The only probalem was that we couldn't laugh out loud as it would disturb the others, and that was painful holding the laugh back.
I did a lot of work for Uncle Robert during this first week. In return, he chatted with me and treated me dinners. The dinners were nice. He always had a good sense on picking restaurents. I'll never forget that morning about four years ago when he rang mom to wake us up to have breakfast with him at Parker Royal at 5am. The chatting were nice too. I already said that he's a great story teller. But he also has a great mind and different way of thinking as to most people.
He taught me a great way of making myslef feel a lot happier on issues concerning this one and only girl I really don't like at school. He and I rewrote the lyrics of "No Matter What" to suit the occasion. We then recorded the song with me singing it and him doing his bit of "Mozart" laughter in the end. It was a great production. The song was intended to be given to that girl. But I thought it is a great cheer up for myself just listening to it when I am down. I don't even need to give it to the girl.
We also talked about my future career. To be honest, I don't really want to become what my mom planned for me since I was two. But then I don't really know what else I can do without starving myself in the future. I know I love the technical side of the theater very much. I love the whole atmosphere and just everything about it. The life style, the music, the dancing, the hard working, the busyness. What's more important, I think I have a nack for it. I can get aspects of the technical theater really fast. I haven't done it for long. I really just started doing it since "Dracula" last year. But I am catching up quite fast. I know how to do sound just being taught once. Uncle Robert thought that would be good career path for me. He rang up some friends and was reassured that this profession is in need of people at the moment, and that there's big money in film and television. Uncle Robert thought I should do it and told mom about it. Guess what? Mom had a fit and broke down. Guess the issue would just have to be brought up later when she could take it a little better.
Apr. 12th, 2006 @ 01:50 am
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| » First Term Gone? |
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Doesn't time fly? The first term of my last year in high school is nearly over. So much happened during this little bit of time.
My busy-ness hasn't really improved. Mainly due to some drastic family events that I shall not say but will forever remember it. But so far, the year's been going good. I haven't gotten sick yet, unlike last year. I'll assume this as a good start.
I got my job back at Rewi Alley School. This time I really am a formal teacher, not just some reliever on stand-by. I get to teach children of year 3 through to year 6. It's quite a big range, but I think I'll cope. Just have to get it sorted out systematically during the holidays. Then I'd know how to put them into the best arrangement.
Apr. 3rd, 2006 @ 01:32 am
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| » Back From Taiwan and Ready to Start School |
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After NCEA exam last year, I went back to Taiwan for Christmas. My first visit in 7 years. The trip was ok. Not particularly good, nor particularly bad. I had a great time shopping for electronic gadgets, although that's pretty much 10 years worth of savings gone. I bought my first digital camera (Sony DSC-W5), a Wacom Graphire 4 Tablet, hard plastic iPod case, i-dog, a Philips microphone, Acer's wireless mouse, a 60GB portable hard disk drive, another USB hub, lots and lots of blank CDs, books I should not have bought due to their size, thus not easy to carry on airplane, which I bought anyway, an alarm clock and a chain watch. I can also proudly announce that I have successfully refilled two shelves with stationary. One with pens and other with paper.
The not so good side of it was the polluted air, which can make people sick. We've been busy shopping the whole 4 weeks we were there; getting out of the house at 10am and not returning until 6-9pm. As we don't own a car in Taiwan anymore, we had to go everywhere by bus. Buses are always crowded. Sometimes we can't even find seats. One time the bus was crowded to a point that breathing became a problem. And that was the day I fainted for the first time in my entire life. Another health related issue, my mom discovered that she has some kind of eye sight problem. Appearantly, it could make her blind if not treated. She's on medication now, and hopefully it won't be any worse.
On a much happier notes, during my stay in Taiwan, a cousin of mom finally got married. She is about 50 years old, so it's good to know that she has found someone to keep her company when she is even older. Because of her job, she's been staying in Berlin most of the time. Thereffore, it's not too big a surprise that she is marrying someone German. I got to attend their wedding party. It was a rather weird party. I have no idea what the groom and his friends said in their speech. Should I regret sleeping through all those German lessons in year 7? The worst is still to come. Appearanly, a friend of the groom (obviously German) recently published a book. He got up and talked about his book, gave everyone a copy, and everyone went up to him to get his/her copy signed.... Isn't that odd to take place during a wedding?
Nothing else interesting happened. We just got on the plane and travelled back again. And that was about... two weeks ago.
During these two weeks, I've been catching up on sleep mainly. And now it's less than a week till school starts. I shall be looking over my schedule this year in the next few days and work out when I am going to do what.
Jan. 28th, 2006 @ 01:01 pm
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| » Hello and Farewell Again |
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After I finally finished exams and finally finished moving room, life should be right back to normal.... No, I've got to catch a midday flight to Taiwan midday today. The whole reason why my Mother insisted everything to be done within one week. But frankly, I hate housework.
So I'll be boarding my plane and not knowing when I can see internet again. Not excited, more scared. I haven't been back for seven years and don't know what it's like anymore. Also I have very bad feling about this trip. I've been having nightmares for the last four nights. Mother have this feeling also. She keeps saying something would happen.... I think something might, but I'd better not tell her in case she stress even more.
Hopefully nothing will happen and everyone will be safe and sound.
Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 05:58 am
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| » Eventful |
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I shall start the story today with my sister's stupidity.
I have a sister. I have a stupid, silly, forgetful, useless younger sister. The little darling managed to throw $15 into the cinema rubbish bin on her way out. 15 minutes after we got home, mom told me to go back to the cinema to fish my sister's $15 out.... Not something people would like to do, I guess, and I was no different. I drove back to the cinema, only to be told that I couldn't go in while the movie was on and was told to come back again at 11pm. So I went back home, grabbed my sister, stuffed her into the back of the car with a pair of rubber gloves and drove back to the cinema so she can fish her $15 out herself. The good news is that she got it out in the end and our family is not $15 poorer as we would have been.
And now the story about my band....
I have a band. I really do have a band. I don't play instruments and I can't sing. I know nothing about rock music and I don't even really like the style. Somehow I became the manager of a band that was on the verge of falling apart. I spent the better part of my last week trying to save the band. The main problem is that our drummer has a NCEA music assessment and he wish the band to help him out. However the lead vocal refuse to perform as she felt she wasn't ready. My title means I have to be the one to talk to both sides of the party and try to get them to compromise. Let's put it that it was by no means a easy and casual chat. Other band members were so sick of the argument that they were seriously thinking about just flagging the whole thing.
In the end I managed to talk the lead vocal into performing. (And hence the question of how to fake tears, luckily, I never had to resort to that.) How I did it is between the two of us. But the conclusion is I got a deal and sealed it fast. The performance took place yesterday. A good thing it happened I'd say, because our band is not falling apart anymore. The drummer is now very happy that he got his assignment done (so happy he treated the keyboardist and the guitarist Starbuck coffee) and the lead vocal got over her fear of singing before audience. After listening to the recording of the performance, we all agree it was a success although there'll always be points where we can improve. The vocalist is actually very excited and wants more performances right now. And the best thing is that after two months worth of arguments, we finally got our name "Stigma Style".
The band problem is solved. Thank God! Good, meaning I don't have to worry about the members' relationships and our vocalist's fear anymore. Started working on the advertisement part today and we got ourselves an advertisement adviser. So far all we have to show is the audio clip recorded yesterday, which isn't very good as I didn't get the sound mixing quite right. Will improve on it next time though. And wait till we got our music video out next year. Far from the half-dead state it was this time last week, our band resurrected itself and is now more promising than ever.
Oct. 31st, 2005 @ 06:40 pm
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1, I have 7 names. Not nick names either, real official names I have used during some point of my life. The initials of them all are EJWCVKLF, and F is the last name.
2, I hate movie scenes during which people kiss, because those kisses just last forever and never ends. Gets quite boring after a while.
3, I love singing, though I'm rather bad at it.
4, I can do the splits and the bridge. I can also dance on my toes. But that's about the extend of my dance training.
5, Words that people have used to describe me to my face are: freaky, weird, nasty, evil, mean, cruel, stingy, crazy
6, If I want to, I can stare at one place without blinking. My longest record was 5 minutes, but that was a long time ago.
7, One of my all time obsession is food. Pity I cannot cook.
8, My mom makes cakes and I eat cakes. I once ate 1/3 of a cake myself because people in school can't finish it and I'm not allowed to take leftovers home. Put me off cakes for a while though.
9, I am growing old, greying at the moment in fact. My friend has already pulled 25 strands of pure white hair out in the past month. And yes, I'm sure I'm not turning blond. Asians can't turn blond.
10, I've got one sister and four cousins. I take them out with me in turns, and people always get my cousins and my sister confused.
11, I go to a girl school, but thank God I can leave out the "religious" part
12, I love the theater, on stage and off stage, empty and full. Been finding the backstage much more interesting at the moment.
13, No physical contact unless I allow it. Last time someone touched me without permission resulted in me falling back first from a 2m high bar.
14, Cynophobic... extreme fear for dogs, so don't be too surprised if suddenly a huge dog walks in and you find me climbing on top of people for protection.
15, If everybody is an animal in his/her past life, I must have been a turtle or a snail. But not because I am slow.
16, I am a manager for a band that is on the verge of falling apart. Doing my best saving it right now.
17, Absolute workaholic, and won't stop till the warning shot "nerveous breakdown" shows up.
18, Have been the fighter of the female gender for as long as I remember. Sometimes when I was 7 or 8, I once ran into boys toilets without thinking to beat up some idiot who was pulling girls' skirts up. Got caught by the teacher and got into loads of trouble.
19, I love coffee.
20, 17 and never been kissed... and totally prepared to be "80 and still haven't been kissed".
The most random 20 things about me... how boring.
Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 02:11 am
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| » Nope, I changed my mind... yet again |
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After one week of living without my computer, I've decided that life without computer is a pain. So, I got it back... after some fighting over the subject with my mom. And now I can write up a little account of what I did over the weekend.
Haha, instead of sitting by my desk and studying (which I should be doing), I've been to that party I mentioned about. Nothing much happened really. I drove my friend up the mountain some 40km out of CHCH, with HER mom down on her knees praying that we don't crash the whole time we spend on the road. And I'd have to say that it was quite a few hours not because we got lost but because we stopped for pizza mid way. That stop took one hour because I ate a whole large Domino pizza by myself... yum!
By the time we got to the party, the birthday girl was impatient to do the presents. I gave her a pair of bunny ears, a bow tie and the bunny tail for present. A certain somebody whome we all know was also there... and that was my chance for revenge. I got her to do the bunny hooker dance, muahahaha!
And then... alas, now I cannot say "I have never touched alcohol in my whole life" as an excuse to get out of drinking. A good thing I wasn't drunk. No, no, I must hold my alcohol better than I thought. I was on sugar high though, unfortunately. That means I went hill climbing in high heel shoes, Cashmere coats and ankle length skirt. Luckily, I still have sense enough not to go skinny dipping. (Who did? Sorry, identity indisclosed) All of that happened way past midnight Saturday/Sunday.
When I got home though, something weird happened. I found myself sobbing over some sentimental short story written in Chinese. Weird, I NEVER cry at anything. Since when have I turned so sentimental? Where did that nasty and cruel and evil Eilonwy gone? The story isn't even sad... here's a translation for you to judge yourself.
"The store owner stood behind the counter, staring aimlessly out of the shop window. A little girl walked in. She stood staring at the sapphire necklace in the display shelf, entranced.
She said, 'I'd like to buy that necklace for my sister. Can you wrap it up nicely?'
The store owner looked at the little girl suspiciously. 'How much money have you got?'
The little girl took a cloth bundle out of her pocket and carefully untied all the knots. She then put it on the counter and asked excitedly, 'Are these enough?'
All she had was a couple of silver coins.
'Today is my sister's birthday. I want to give her something nice,' she explained. 'Ever since our mother died, she took care of us like a mom. I think she'll love the necklace, because it matches the color of her eyes perfectly.'
The store owner took out the necklace and put it in a box. He wrapped the box in a piece of red wrapping paper and finished off by tying a green ribbon around it. 'There you go, be careful with it.'
The little girl danced away happily.
Just as the day's work was about to come to an end, a pretty girl entered the shop. She had a pair of sapphire blue eyes.
The girl put an unwrapped box on the counter and asked, 'Is this bought from here? How much does it cost?'
The store owner replied, 'The cost of our merchandise remains a secret between the buyer and the seller.'
The girl was not deceived, 'I know my sister only have a couple of silver coins. But these are real sapphires. She could never have paid for it.'
The sotre keeper took back the box, rewrapped it and retied the ribbon. He gave the gift box back to the girl, 'She paid more for it than anyone else; she paid all that she owned.'"
And that's the end of the story. Don't know why I was so touched yesterday. Today I reread it just now to translate it and I can't feel a thing. Hmm...
Oh, and one last piece of good news... my weight has finally exceeded 50kg. 51, to be precise. Yay! Blood donation next year!
Oct. 24th, 2005 @ 03:31 pm
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| » Till Later... |
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Unfortunately, end of year exam is approaching and it's the real one this time. As I didn't study much for the practise exam, I should start studying nice and early this time round. And, yes, that means my computer gets lock up from tomorrow onwards. So I won't be here much really, just whatever time I can find to sneak up here during school lunch or something.
(Not that I'm going to be missed anyway, because there isn't anything to miss me for.)
But tonight, or rather this morning, I recorded one song for fun. (Ha! I know, I know, I can't sing. But hey, note the underline on "fun") And here it is... [link] However, I strongly advice no one who still love their ears and brain cells to go there. Trust me, I recorded it under the state of half asleep and half distracted by various other facts, and more than half of it is off key. Unless you are looking for "bad singer" competition, don't go there.
And now... farewell and goodbye!
Oct. 15th, 2005 @ 01:27 am
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